Basketball

I mentioned this a bit in my super long post about soccer, but I'm gonna talk a bit more in depth right now.

I've played sports all my life. I've played a sport literally every season except one at Indian Creek, and that was because of an injury. I decided to try basketball again this year. I was kinda nervous about it, but decided to go for it. I was hurt, and it took me a while to actually get to practicing. The thing is, I don't really like basketball. It's fun to cheer on the bench and it's ok to play, but the game itself just isn't really that fun to me. My favorite part of practice is the loose ball drill, because diving on the floor reminds me of soccer.

Here's the thing. Basketball is a huge commitment. We practiced until 8 last night, and that wasn't that far out of the ordinary. It feels like I'm faking it, if that makes sense. My heart isn't into it. It seems like the guys on the team all really are into it, and I'm not. It feels like I don't belong.

On the bus to practice yesterday, everyone was giving each other shit, like always. It turned into someone shou/enting something like  "Your girlfriend looks like Helga from Hey Arnold!" and somebody shouting back "Your girlfriend can dunk on you!" and so on and so forth. Everyone on the bus was laughing their asses off, and I just kinda sat there. I guess it just feels like I'm not really a part of the team, and that sucks.

There's a twitter account that's something like @whitebasketballproblems where the bio is "average athleticism, average height, above average GPA, and below average skill." That's me, and it kinda hurts. It feels sometimes like the only reason I'm on the team is to help people with their grades during team study hall, and that honestly hurts a bit.

/endrant