Bittersweet

I've said time and time again that Jazz Band is my favorite class. It's the class where I walk in and know I'm gonna laugh. I know I'm gonna get a chunk of time where I don't have to worry about derivatives (calculus) the 5 billion types of dirt (AP environmental) or the difference between a spondee and a troche (ap lit). I can just play my saxophone. I love jazz band and think it's been pretty much the only constant in my time at indian creek. I even wrote one of my college essays about it. University of Michigan asked me to write about a community that I'm a part of, and Jazz Band was definitely the first thing that came to mind. I looked at it again, and I agree 100% with everything I wrote. In case you care, It was about how scared and uncomfortable I was with my saxophone ability as a freshman, and how even though I was the only freshman, nobody made fun of me or anything. It was awesome, and now I try to do the same thing for those younger/less experienced than me now.

We had our winter concert last night, and there's a song I'm "featured"on. This basically means that almost the entire song is a solo part for me. When recognizing that before the song, Mrs. Woodward said something about me being a senior. That's insane! I have one concert left before I go to college. That's only 3, maybe 4 songs that I get to learn with everyone else in the band. While playing that song, I was super into it. It was a difficult song, with a style that I often have trouble with. I think I did really well though. The song after was way easier, and I played it almost automatically. I didn't have to think about it. What I did think about was how much I'm going to miss jazz band. I'm almost certainly headed to a huge college  (the smallest I applied too was about 14000 students, with most being more than 30000) and I really hope I can find my own niche there like I have here.

As much as it seems kinda dickheadish, I like Jazz Band because I'm good at it. I'm a part of the basketball and lacrosse teams, for example, but I'm not particularly good at either. I feel like there's not much I'm the "best" at. It seems sometimes like I'm the stereotypical jack of all trades, master of none. Except in Jazz Band. It might sound a little egotistical, but I think I'm the best player in Jazz Band. It's great to be the one who everyone knows they can count on, who people go to for help.

It's been a great 3.5 years of jazz band, and honestly some of the jokes and memories I've made are the best things about high school. I don't know what I'm gonna do next year without it.